Hitter to looper

hi Coach Alois,

I am Mark. I had been drilled to play near table quick attack style from the beginning. 12 months ago, I learnt looping and had been able to deliver deadly spin on it from mid- far table. so there is a conflict in my playing style now.

when I enter a competition under intense pressure, my first learned style will surface, which is basic hitting with slight topspin at tremendous speed. something like a women playing style. I will not even realized it until I won some points. 

by then, I will try to control my 'instinct' by willing my body to do the looping style at mid table. end up: what I observed is a first good loop, follow by many subsequent loop motion stroke but still hitting. so you can imagine me starting my loop position low, and when I see the ball arriving into my hitting zone, I will hit it instead of brushing it. 

so now there is a problem, at near table, I can't produce topspin desired from a loop. instead I will be hitting through the ball. is it the lack of confidence or been 'psycho' to do hitting at near table or lack of the skill to grip and brush the ball.

right now, I am figuring out whether I had problem with gripping the ball. If that is the case, how do i solve it?